Withheld to Protect the Innocent....

I'm sure no one is gonna understand this but me..but that's ok. I feel summed upmy whole life is a jokeall promises I made to myselfhave been brokeI'm so full of painso full of worryI feel full of failureand for this I am sorryI had a light that shined so brightthat has been dimmed and replaced with frightfear of what's to comefear of what I've doneNeverending, stationary herethis is the cross I shall barenot breaking downbut silently eroding stillNothing can stop itnot till it's fullCan't see what's behindCan't see up aheadNothing to the right,and to the left, deep dreadYes this is wrongYes this is saddeningNo I can't stop itAnd this is quite maddeningIt's happened beforeit's coming againwho will be therewho's got an extra hand to lendI'm not ready to gobut ready to endIt's a thin line that I walkAll I needed was a friendTo stop the blowsTo stop the hurtI've sunken my hopesfar into the dirtWill you be thereWill you not goI sit, I think, I sinkthe answers not knownI need something Yet can't think what it isDo you have that somethingto remedy this?Please someone let it be heardplease help fix meMy sight is jaded and I can't see clearlyBut you have the flashlight that cuts through this smogIt's you that I'll count onto end my fog.So this be my messageI hope you hear it in timeThat way you can help mebefore i go out of my mind....