That Damned Fog Again....

There's this blanket of fog that seems to just kinda envelope me at all times...it's so heavy it makes me forget what makes me happy, forget what makes me smile, forget what i find good and fun...and it sucks..and it seems to be ever more predominant as of late. With really no actual reasoning behind it, I mean things are goin pretty damned good. My friends rock (well for the most part), work's goin good (got a raise to boot), famfam is cool, online shiz is ok...So i don't really understand it. Some of it i know it just unresolved things, but some of it ...some of it is just things that were left to build up and up and they are now kickin my ass. It's weird..it all happens in cycles. There's time when all i wanna do is be at home and chillin out, then there's times when i just wanna be out surrounded by the ppl i feel the most comfy with (my friends)..then there's those times when i actually just wanna be at work..Sick i know..but it's like i'm 1 hour away from everything...in a sense it's an escape almost. But then on other days it's like a prison..So let's see I'm gettin ever so excited bout the show, should be damned fun, what's better me, my boys, and incubus...maybe if tori and guster were on the bill..heheh holy shit i wouldnt' be able to walk....Finally caught up on my bills...............just in time for the next slew..damn. Ain't that a son of a biatch, not to mention all the old ones were late, I make enough money....i just don't know how to manage it i guess, i'm not broke..i just don't go to the bank hehe. ahh well i'll figure something out i always do.:(I don't know..just wanted to vent me guesses. Sorry for those who had to read it LoL