Past Full

I've had it..quite honestly just had it. I'm sick of it, really. This pettiness, this self centered shit. All this crap that's banged upon my head, it gets really tiring, it gets really annoying and it suffocates me. I'm drowning in it. Yet it's all around me, I can't even wade through it all. People are so ......I can't even place a word here to measure the magnitude of what I'm feeling. People...they are the most fucked up creatures in this world. They hurt others and then expect to be comforted. They have no time to lend to others, conversations consistently end upon "how are you". I've said it before and I'll continue on saying it cuz now i'm really pissed off.. What about me? What about what I'm goin through? what about my pain, sadness, anger, hostility, etc etc...Goin on into infinity and beyond. I'm like this person..a person who is not "allowed" to have a bad time, I'm supposed to fix them all, I'm supposed to have all the answers, I'm supposed to be the buffer between all that is good and bad for all..well you know what? FUCK YOU Fuck all of it, Yeah I'm angry..yeah i'm pissed...If you didn't really care, ya shouldn't have fronted on me, this idea that you did, didn't just pop into my head magically, i'm a hard ass, i confront everything, yet can't confront you face to face...have to do it in the safety of livejournal...Errrrr I'm so pissed at everything at the moment, and if i felt secure, and if i felt that i made a "dent" it's all been washed away..Swiped away violently if nothing at all...So now what? Where to go from here...go on? continue? fix it? i think not..it's been done..it's been over..this was a long time in coming..."I'm flying so over it"-Tanya Donnelly.