sabato 23 giugno 2007
Mmm Happy?
"I'm so happy (so happy) how do you write about that?"-Harvey DangerSo true So true..Yet i felt i needed to get it out..so ppl don't think kris is just all doom and gloom..cuz I'm rarely like that. I was just having a spell...or something to that effect. So what you ask is making me smile from ear to ear, well let me tell you! There I was after workin like mad (again 2 aides only..but you know what? That's not bothering me at all..not today anyway.) sooooooo it's bout 1:30 I'm sittin at my dest about to devour a most scrumptious chicken ceasar salad. Yummy. and talkin to my coworker and i hear this strange lil sound..that is most unmistakingly the annoying lil ring of my annoying cell. So i pick up and DAMN guess who it is? oh yeah you guessed it. (how teeny am i sounding right now?) So all fetal attempts to get him outta my mind and concentrate on other "life occurences" were WHOOOOOOOOOSHED aside in one simple conversation. Damn huh? But it's alright. It's sorta false hope, but it's hope all the same no? I've thrown it out for so damned long in fear of failing or gettin caught up...Not no more..I'm just gonna roll with it, see where it all goes, not just with this..but with everything. No i'm not gonna be playa kris..but I'm definitely gonna quit with the inferiority trip i've been rollin on nowdays what's up with that? Let me tell ya tho, it's helped havin the cool peeps i have online boostin me...hehe Why? i don't know, i can't seem to understand that, but i have come to understand that from the inside things shine through...and that's what is the most important right? Right. So many thanks to my lil satellites..heheh well not really satellites..(cuz that song is highly irritating..) but my shining stars...=) Luv yas all! (well not all..but I can't be a biatch tonite..cuz i'm happy!) The brightest of them know who I'm referring to. right? Right. Much Peace and Light!
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I like playa Kris. Of all the Kris' that is my favorite. Well I have no idea what you are talking about but I will give you some advice that one of my great online friends (wink wink) gave me, "Follow your heart". Let's see if that helps.:+)Jarred
Well I don't know about the whole follow your heart thing. Sometimes my heart leads me in very wrong directions...Very likely into directions that end up hurting me more than doing me good. So alas, I don't know what else to do. I avoid him usually nowadays..just so I don't have to deal with all that is goin through my head. Stupid and ridiculous I know...It's that safety net again tho. But is me still havin feelings for him after all this time just a safety net too? To bar me from experiencing other prospects? From falling for anyone else? Who knows huh? COMMENTS? IDEAS? Peanuts? Cigars?...argh!
But if you follow your heart that's the only way to be satisfied in what you did. If you overthink things like I do you won't get anywhere. Just go with your instinct that way you'll never wonder what might have been. You may still regret the decision afterwards but at least you won't have doubts about yourself.:+)Jarred
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