Took A Look Around...

So today was Tommy's big "Goin Away Again" party. I do not believe how much of a disapointment it became. I don't think ppl realize that he's gonna be gone for freakin 3 whole bloody years. 3 Years!!! That's a LONG damn time...They were so nonchalant about the whole thing. HOW? Tommy is one of the greatest guys of all time, layed back, really mellow, never really angry etc etc. The list goes on and on. Yet there was no big production made, no big thing at all. 1 shitty thing after another if you wanna break it down. His mom made us all leave. Ok which is totally understandable, i left with erik and came back with 4 car loads of ppl..Ok i see your point ma..you don't want that many ppl in your house. Ok another thing..we have to go to Eric's lil shack, which is cool, but he expected us to party outside...in the wet freshly mowed grass cuz he didn't trust the ppl there...Ok fine...it turned out that he was right but still my toes were frozen by the end of it all. He was cool tho, let a few of us in the house, so we hung in there.."The Chosen Ones" hehe Then Tommy had bought 2 beer balls...4 ppl took off with one...blatantly stole the damned thing. What is that? This boy is goin back to the army for 3 years and you steal is alcohol? What the hell are you thinking? Ok so yeah those things sucked..but not as much as gettin back in the car and talkin with Tom. Shannon made us leave early...well not really 2:30am..that's not early but still...it was kinda rude considering the circumstances. Tommy, he had been all detached from the group all night. Him and I went upstairs to his room and were talking abit. He's so upset. So let down. It hurts to see that ppl that meant the world to him, deem him not so. Even if it's not that way, they presented themselves in a way that showed nothing but that.SO here's my major problem..I haven't hung out with any of those guys since Tommy left..so basically since new years for most of them...How freakin sad...Not a one of them has made something of themselves..NOT ONE! Not to mention 2 of em are in jail. (again!) What the hell is this? Am i just gettin old? Am i just missing something? They are exactly where they were a few years ago..and not even considering goin anywhere else. Maybe it's cuz i'm settled and workin and getting somewhere...but them...they are stationary..stuck in the slump that they have willingly created. So sad. they had so much potential..all of them were and still are shining stars in my eyes regardless of the pointless trouble they get in. It's just so sad that they are going to let where they rose up from decide their future...Just cuz they came up from nothing...it doesn't mean they have to stabilize there......And the saddest thing of all...no matter what you say, they don't see that...they believe they are destined to always be.."grove rats" how sad...how sad indeed...:(